Mittwoch, Mai 31, 2006

The Goddesses Gathered

for the second time, at the lovely home/studio of Goddess Siren (just a placeholder name till we get the ‘real’ one figured out). I approached the entrance, arms laden with a silver tray with vast amounts of cut vegetables, as well as freshly made rhubarb crumble and a change of clothes. She was down on her hands and knees, drawing on the sidewalk with chalk, a mischievous grin on her face:

We proceeded to get ourselves and the space ready, and then the Goddesses started to arrive, one by one. Goddess Kami was first, toting the beats in her bag, then Goddess Carettacaretta (who later vowed to be a part of *every* gathering from then on). In all we had about a dozen ravishing beauties occupy the room, wandering in and out to add their handiwork to the art growing outside:

It was an interesting mix of ages, cultures and backgrounds, and we had a lively discussion about what it meant to each of us to embody and express our ‘Goddessness’ and female power. I felt a deep connection happening, a union between us as we laughed and shared our stories over the lavender chamomile ginger punch (a heavenly concoction brewed by the hostess herself).

I’m almost convinced it was a love potion:

Mittwoch, Mai 24, 2006


Can I just say...

that this has been the best birthday ever, and it's not even over yet?

that my incredible boyfriend has made up for ten years of shitty birthdays spent with my ex in one go?

that I love surprises?

that I'm even willing to wait on the trampoline?

Now that's saying a lot.

Dienstag, Mai 23, 2006

what's tomorrow again?

It's my birthday tomorrow.
It's my birthday tomorrow.
It's my birthday tomorrow.
It's my birthday tomorrow.

Oh, did I mention? It's my birthday tomorrow.

And Happy Birthday today, Island Girl!

See you in July!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Montag, Mai 22, 2006

Flu B Gone

Yuck. Yucky. Yuck. Yuck.

That sums up how I feel in so many words. It seems we're had a touch of the flu bestowed upon us (for my poor bf it was more like a big ol smack upside the head). There has been a lot of snoozing, couch lying, gatorade drinking goin' on. Good times.

Hoping to have my strength back for the first outdoor game of the year... tomorrow night! That reminds me, I need to pick up some bug spray in a major way. Go Stingers! (not that kind) :)

Freitag, Mai 19, 2006


Originally uploaded by ssygrl.
K, so I'm still figuring out this whole how-it-works thing.

In this particular case, I mean the love #2 which came to me in the form of a 'lil blue apple with a bite out of the top on top...

I was in the middle of writing this big long piece about what I *had* been able to assess so far (is that word meant to have an 'ass' in it?) and now it's gone *poof* and there's no 'retrieve post' button. I've had to post from Flickr, you see, cause I haven't gotten to where it is you can delete the cookies thing yet. Yeah.

It's truly learning-by-doing, and altough I have the 'bible' (missing manual) book for this here thing, I'm slowly putting the pieces together, I think I learn best by stumbling my way through it myself. Just as in life, I suppose.

A mirror is a strong metaphor for the metamorphisis that has been transpiring in my life lately. I'm feeling stronger and clearer than ever before about my dreams and what exactly it's going to take to bring them to life. I am removing the blocks that have been littering the path, one by one, and I am realizing the shifts that are taking place are not to be resisted, because that gut of mine? She knows exactly what's best.

Once the obstacles have been swept to the side, the path becomes much easier to navigate, and those holes you used to fall in (and stones you used to trip over) are suddenly gone. Smooth sailing on the SS Sassafrass... All aboard who's coming aboard!

It's gonna be a fun ride.

*even the walls match, did you notice??*

matching the bathroom counter

Originally uploaded by ssygrl.

Donnerstag, Mai 18, 2006

Long weekend goodness

Less than half an hour till my long weekend begins…

Less than a week till my bday and I’m pretty damn excited. Seeing as it’s been the best year of my life so far, it follows suit that this will be the best birthday ever as well. I have a *very* good feeling about it. I also get to stretch it out- the party isn’t till the first weekend in June, and there is a Goddess gathering on the weekend before that. Lots of celebrating going on, lots to celebrate.

I’m letting my #1 wish be known to as many people as possible, so I thought why not announce it here? First on the list is…ready for it? A trampoline! And somewhere to put it, of course.

Boy, I am slacking in the HNT department lately… I’ll have to get right on that this weekend. Just not while I’m meeting the boyfriends parents. Happy Nekkid Happiness, y’all!

Dienstag, Mai 16, 2006


Is everywhere

in a thought

in the trees

in the breeze

and the sunshine

on my face

warming my heart

from such a long winter

filling my soul

setting me free

Montag, Mai 15, 2006

Love can build many bridges

Wow. I feel like I have been put throught the wringer (in the best possible way). My brain is still processing a lot of the information it was given over the past 5 days, but I do have a newfound sense of lightness and optimism. I am grateful for the chance to have taken part ~for free~ and the opportunity I had to connect with so many other people on so many levels. I even came across a couple of Goddesses, and can't wait to introduce them to the others next Saturday.

My favorite part of all, however, was my parents dancing together at my Graduation. Bless them both for putting their differences aside to support me in my journey. Love love.

Freitag, Mai 12, 2006


"Life's not about expecting, hoping and wishing, it's about doing, being and becoming. It's about the choices you've just made, and the ones you're about to make, it's about the things you choose to say - today. It's about what you're going to do after you finish reading this."

Mike Dooley, a.k.a. 'The Universe' Friend and Fellow Adventurer

This is exactly where I'm at right now. In the middle of a 5 day seminar on ... for lack of a better term 'Personal Growth'. We're exploring our belief systems, our attitudes, our choices and our actions. Today is all about accountability.

I'm going to have sushi now. :)

Happy Weekend, everyone!

Dienstag, Mai 09, 2006

oscar n roxie

oscar n roxie
Originally uploaded by ssygrl.
My heart broke a little bit as I left these two (and the two cats) behind tonight, on to my next house sit.

It's the third time I've had the pleasure of looking after these 'babies' as their parents call them (this time they were away 3 weeks to Europe).

Sigh. They certainly touched my heart as they eagerly shared so much unconditional love with me. This was taken this morning around 7, just before we headed out on our daily morning jaunt. I'll miss them... till next time!

Sonntag, Mai 07, 2006

200 k

Forgetting to breathe
How was that?
You smile
Strangely familiar
But with more of a thrill
More! I say
My arms wrapped around tight
My thighs squeezing
with all of their might
Hooked on the first ride
I want more
The jacket
The gloves
The stares
The sweat on the palm of my hands
The holding properly of the helmet
The smile
I dare
The ecstasy
I've caught the bug
you say
It has just begun

Freitag, Mai 05, 2006

bday grrrl

'Tis the month of the birthday for the Sassy one.

Looking for a theme for my party this year- two years ago it was toys & games (everyone got nametags which listed their favourite, mine was "Rollergirl") and last year was the infamous Garden Party (my sister brought the Hoe).

Suggestions, please?

It's the first weekend in June, let me know if you can make it!

Donnerstag, Mai 04, 2006

Right here waiting

Hot damn, it's the third Half Nekkid Thursday I've missed in a row... Miss you folks. I have been gettin nekkid, there just haven't been any cameras around...

I've kinda been floating the past couple of weeks, a half nekkid angel, if you will. But a Sassy one oh yes.

Speaking of angels, my Nicky winked down at me today (on what would have been his 34th bday). He is the only other close person in my life who has passed, besides my oma.

We were babies together, our parents good friends when we all lived in the Eastern townships, south of Montreal. Our family moved to Cowtown, and theirs ended up in California, and it wasn't until a dozen years passed that we got the chance to meet again.

My mom was coming through on a promise to take my sister and I to Disneyland. We 'did' California, from SF to San Diego to Yosemite, with lots of entertaining stops in between- Carmel and Santa Barbara stand out in my memory, that beautiful coastal highway. Mom navigated them so well, as well as the widest and busiest and scariest freeways in the area around LA.

But I'm rambling... must have windy roads and beaches on my mind :)

I loved everything about the place. So lush and green, equally as refreshing to my soul as the laid back attitude of the people living there. It was about the middle of the trip when we arrived at our dear hosts for a few days (Nick's dad was teaching direction at USC). We became very fast friends, having long talks under the stars in the pool and innocent/daring shoulder rubs and giggles till late in the night. We were totally innocent... I was a very young 14 and he was 16.

Our correspondance over the next three years was sporatic on his part (he spent the following summer in France and then was entering his freshman year in his dad's program). Mine was frequent (and rambling) as I shared all of my high school turbulence and triumphs with him. We had a great bond which intensified with regular phone calls soon after.

That summer he got a job at the Springs hotel, and what film student wouldn't jump at the chance to work in the place that the Shining was filmed? Plus, he's only be an hour from Calgary so we would get to have our long awaited reunion... ahhh teenage love!

We ended up determining pretty quickly that our romantic compatibility just wasn't happening, but this didn't stop our deep connection and friendship from continuing its flow. Nicky was just one of those people who was meant to be in my life for a specific reason.

Tragically, he lost his life in a climbing accident about a month after his arrival. It took me a good 10 years to be able to even look at that particular mountain again. His death altered me to the core, and had me asking myself for the first time ever what exactly this thing called life was and what the purpose of it all was. He was 19, I was 17.

We had a song (of course). That song pops up from time to time in odd places, and over the years I have come to take it as a little hello from my Nicky. Every once in awhile, when I least expect it, there it is. A warm smile and a comforting reminder. It came on the radio station I 'landed' on tonight, on the glide down the somewhat tarnished red mile to my positive thinking class. I smiled back, through Jules's sunroof, took a deep breath and thanked him.

Mittwoch, Mai 03, 2006

two lips

This the right hand side of my desk at work, and the flowers I bought myself a couple of days ago (5 bucks, whattadeal!). This is also the first image I've posted from my cell phone camera. Yes, that's a cocktail umbrella in my pen/calculator/scissor holder, and on the left behind it is a picture I coloured myself. I love how the dog in the calendar is looking at the flowers. No, none of this is work related but I just thought I'd share. Too bad the Christmas lights aren't plugged in- they really add to the ambiance. We decided to keep them up all year.

Dienstag, Mai 02, 2006

fishies and frogs and snakes oh my

Awhile back, Brea sweetly requested that I expound on the details of my disastrous dating adventures. Well, now that I’m safely within the (loving) confines of a relationship, I feel comfortable enough to spill the dirt. In summary:

There was the one who followed me upstairs and asked if he could watch me change ~creepiness~!!
The one who sized me up over his burger, told me I smelled nice as we parted and never called again.
The Jack-of-all-everything, who I was completely compatible with but who wasn’t interested in a long term thing.
The one whose life I touched forever.
The dark horse in the running with the brilliant mind, the chain smoking distantly unavailable one.
The one who touched my life forever, when he didn’t take no as no.
The sweet musician who brought me dinner and took me to a concert, also never to be seen or heard from again.
The one who failed to mention the wife with a baby on the way (thank goodness I found this out before we were to meet).
The chemically imbalanced unemployed newly divorced with redneck tendencies oh need I go on?
The one I had so much in common with, who was witty and smart and funny in his emails, but stood me up.
The boy in the broken grown up body, with no clue, no clue at all (except when it came to the exact spot I like my neck kissed)…

It has been an interesting journey, to say the least. Lots of bumps and twists in the road. Lots of insight gained about human nature, beliefs, intentions, manners, customs, and personalities. I think I learned more about myself than anything. What it is that I want, how I wish to be treated, how my level of self respect and self esteem is directly reflected back at me by the choices I make and the people I interact with.

Well, I’ve just got one thing to say.

I’m done kissing reptiles.

ich umarme die welt

guten abend. ich soll eigentlich schon langst ins bett sein, aber mein kopf laesst mich nicht los. Nicht nur mein kopf, mein herz ist da auch involviert. ich habe mich schon laenger nicht mehr so gefuehlt, und es ist ziemlich Überwältigend. Ein gutes word dafuer. Aber mutigkeit gewinnt doch... ich wollte mich in eine deutsche stiummung bringen, um meine uebersetzungsarbeit fertig zu machen. Was ich brauche ist ein Magischer Trank damit ich keinen schlaf brauche und alles fertig machen kann! Na ja, das wird leider nichts. Also gehe ich in meinen Bett und traume was schoenes und fang morgen frisch an, bereit fuer den neuen Tag. Es gibt immer wieder ein neuen anfang.