Samstag, Oktober 29, 2005

tomfoolery and such

It has been an incredibly long month (in many ways), and I have mixed feelings about it coming to an end. Of course, it's going out with a bang, with a much anticipated visit from fellow blogger mike b. Wow- it has now been over a year since we met (through T, through friendster), and although we may only get together three or four times a year, I count him as one of my favoritest real life IIFs. It's sure to be an eventful weekend of Tomfoolery.

Which is exactly how I'd describe all of last week, hanging out with an Austrian Polka band. Who hasn't dreamt of being able to say, "I'm with the band"? I had the pleasure of uttering this phrase on many occasions, as I tagged along on outings and gigs, ever willing and ready to play translator/tour guide extrordinaire. I don't think I have ever had so much concentrated fun, picking up on more of their crazy dialect with each passing day.

Now they have departed back to their homeland, and I'm left with the feeling that I need to enjoy every moment, in the moment.

Donnerstag, Oktober 27, 2005

is it HNT again already??

This one I call "gum sharing"



Dienstag, Oktober 25, 2005

Quote 'o the day

"We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same."

– Carlos Castaneda

Donnerstag, Oktober 20, 2005

HNT Austrian Style

A little peek at my 'blumen am balkon'...

Dienstag, Oktober 18, 2005

finally, linkage

Oh, how I have missed having the links to my real and imaginary internet friends on the side.

I’m slowly gathering them back together (along with the real and imaginary pieces of my own life) and rebuilding.

If I have missed you, or you would like to be added please let me know with a comment. Happy Oktober! :) Prost!

Freitag, Oktober 14, 2005

twinkle twinkle

I went on a late night rendez-vous with my ex boyfriend last night. Oh, no, don’t go thinking that. We were fully clothed the entire time and behaved ourselves in an exemplary manner. We’ve been being ‘good’ for months now, since one of us (not sayin’ who) finally put their foot down after over three months of heart wrenching back and forth after the breakup. After a month of self imposed silence (including an all out ban on msning), we’ve resumed communications and are attempting the friendship route. This is a first for me, as all my other exes seemed to have moved away from me, or me from them. Hmmm.

In any case, I was very happy to be in his company, as we settled in on the couch next to the window, in one of my favorite watering holes downtown. I especially love that particular table, and how it looks out on the constant stream of action at the convenience & liquor stores across the street. Glancing skywards you can see the lights of the tower twinkle and feel like you’re about two feet tall. I had had yet another drama filled day on the home front and was looking for a little solace, and he had been working late at the office and needed a little nourishment. Luckily for us, both needs were met and as we conversed the source of his nervousness presented itself.

He revealed that he has started seeing someone else. As I attempted to compose myself (and urge that feeling in the pit of my stomach to settle), a range of emotions raced through me. Eventually I was able to offer “I’m very happy for you” and maybe for the first time was able to understand what it is that he had been going through, hearing my dating tales of the past months. What goes around comes around or something stupid like that. Poke poke. Truth be told, I am happy for him, and I do wish nothing but happiness for him in his life. We determined that we weren’t right for each other (in different places, however you wish to phrase it) months ago, and life does have a habit of moving on. And so it shall.

I am content having shared a stolen hour or two, critiquing the odd, garish art on the walls, the ease and flow of the conversation warming my heart and soul. And if my wish on the twinkling lights comes true, we’ll enjoy the friendship we’ve forged for a long time to come.

Donnerstag, Oktober 13, 2005

HNT... I'm back!

I can NEVER wear a pair of panyhose without getting a run...

Happy HNT y'all!

Dienstag, Oktober 11, 2005


You know that perspective of yours? Maybe it's time for a totally new one. Listen carefully to anyone and everyone around you, especially if their views are different from yours. Is there something you're missing? Is there some fact that you don't know about that could radically change how you look at the world? There could be. And if there was ever a day to contemplate the world around you, this is it.

Montag, Oktober 10, 2005

Dark Days

Dark Days are upon me
Like thick, dense fog
Robbing me of my smile
Stomping on my spirit
The essence of me
Has been locked away
Lethargy is creeping
into my bones
Movement is slow
Or not at all
Joy has gone
A wanderin’
The outlook is bleak
Lead weight on my shoulders
My chest my heart
Suffocating hope
Dark days

Freitag, Oktober 07, 2005


I had a dream last night that my ex husband and I were sitting at a table which was immersed in a lake. The water came up to our necks, and we sat there and had ourselves a pretty decent conversation. This was a little odd, as we haven’t spoken a word in almost 4 years, and he lives halfway around the world. The water was turquoise, and I could see a white car underneath the surface. Behind him was a pipe sticking up out of the water, with a pothole cover on top. We spoke of many things, comfortably and easily, and I even brought up our trip to Turkey (and the last time I had seriously thought about hurting myself). Dreams are such strange things. Earlier this week I dreamt about hippopotami swimming by in a river. Just plain weird.

Mittwoch, Oktober 05, 2005


Your Hawaiian Name is:

Kiele Kalea

Montag, Oktober 03, 2005

Hope springs eternal

Hope springs eternal in the human breast;
Man never Is, but always To be blest:
The soul, uneasy and confin'd from home,
Rests and expatiates in a life to come.

-Alexander Pope,
An Essay on Man, Epistle I, 1733