Montag, August 22, 2005

heart·ache noun : anguish of mind : sorrow

Main Entry: in·teg·ri·ty
Function: noun
1 : firm adherence to a code of especially moral or artistic values : INCORRUPTIBILITY
2 : an unimpaired condition : SOUNDNESS
3 : the quality or state of being complete or undivided : COMPLETENESS
synonym see HONESTY

I finally brought a matter of the heart to its painful but inevitable conclusion tonight. Looked cold hard facts in the eye and didn't look away. A staring contest with my weaker self so to say. I sure don't feel like a winner right now. More like a downtrodden, multiple wrings through the wringer, vulnerable pile of shaky mess.

Somewhere down deep the ever present wise calmness nods her head in silent approval. A long time coming, and a lot of unnecessary distress has lead me to these familiar crossroads, and the time had come to choose the path and keep marchin on. Forward. Solo. Strong. Being true to and honouring myself, at last.

Would someone please kindly tell my heart that it's gonna be ok?


raspberry sundae hat gesagt…


it's gonna be ok.

trust me - i know.

Osbasso hat gesagt…

It's going to be OK, but I'm not totally sure what it's all about. Have I missed something in my quick perusals of your writings??

SG hat gesagt…

it was a break up that took much too long (and much of my heart along with it) to transpire. Was kinda keepin it a little hush hush from blogland (as not to jinx it? I do not know).

My heart thanks you both for your reassurance.